Today is Wednesday, the day of my CT and bone scans and surgical port placement to receive chemo tomorrow. I weaned Sawyer on Monday morning before my MRI, since I wouldn't be able to nurse for 24 hours due to the contrast dye. Monday night was brutal for us both. Tuesday night was better. Sawyer even drank a bottle for me and fell asleep doing so holding on to my finger! The early morning hours of Wednesday soon snuck up on us, and Sawyer ended up sleeping between us in our bed. I was going to wake up before we had to leave for the hospital to pump the last batch of 'good' milk for my sweet baby. After today, every bit I pump until my supply fades away will be useless to him. Around the same time Sawyer woke up, when I normally I would have just nursed him, I had woken up with sore, full breasts. They were still on their schedule to feed. Sawyer was still on his schedule to nurse. Hmm...what to do? I was about to make him a bottle and then pump. We went ...
Join me on my journey down the rabbit hole of Cancer Land! Treatment, divorce, parenthood, teaching and dating while learning to navigate my new life as a metavivor. My sordid tale begins on April 17, 2017 at age 33 when I was diagnosed with Stage II Invasive Ductal Carcinoma Triple Negative Breast Cancer and continues with my new Stage IV diagnosis exactly two years later on April 17, 2019.